When his lifelong friend was murdered at age 17, Aaron was unable to process the grief associated with such a loss. He acted out his desire for revenge by trying to kill the killer. He failed, was arrested (first time ever), and a combination of prosecutor politics and questionable defense got him 50 years in prison. He’s been there now for 20 years. He wrote the following piece for the Second Look Summit in November, 2017, arranged by the Lone Star Justice Alliance.
A YEARNING SOUL
I have such vivid memories of walking across the auditorium stage at my high school graduation as my name is called out. Such joyful memories of my beautiful wife and I cutting our wedding cake as the room erupts into camera flashes and cheers. Such initmate memories of laying next to my wife during the quiet hours of the night listening to her peaceful shallow beaths and feeling so blessed. Such amazing memories of my home exploding into the sounds of high-pitched laughter and squeals of glee as I chase and tickle my children. Such striking memories of celebrating birthdays and holidays with those I love. These memories I speak of are brilliantly real until I awake to discover that these memories are not authentic relivings of the past, because this past that has so vibrantly burst into my minds eye, was never a reality. They are dreams of accomplishments that did not occur… Dreams of a treasured wife wifew I have never known… Dreams of precious children I have not created… Dreams of an approaching quarter of a century worth of memories that never were… Dreams of nothing more than a yearning soul.
Despite the toxic conditions I was forced to grow up in, I persevered to become an enriched man… Despite the huge sentence and unquestionable future, I obtained a college education… Despite the countless odds stacked against ,e, I have risen… And I am not alone. Hundreds of youth offenders possess stories like my own. Like me, most are not bad people and never were. Like me, they just made a horrible decision during the youth of their lives.
“When I was a child, I used to speak like a child, think like a child, reason like a child; when I became a man, I did away with childish things” 1 Corinthians 13:14
You have the power to be a vessel for change. To be the voice for those who cannot speak. To be the sounding mallet of justice. You are the front line for our state’s youth, past and present. You are the carriers of hope and possibilities. Through your envisgae arose Second Look, and through your determination to see it through, countless lives will forever be changed. Your presence here today at the Second Look convention exposes the profound goodness shining within you and there are simply no wqords to express the gratitude so many of us on the inside feel. We rise with you…
J. Aaron Dyson 815938
2661 FM 2054 / Coffield Unit
Tennessee Colony, TX 75884